i love being the strange one.

Let the flames take over.

2010-03-10T15:31:00.002+08:00

currently listening to: Playing god by Paramore.
current mood: sulky and hungry.

its been quite a while too since ive last updated. haha. seems like forever. well paramore was first and foremost the most amazing night of my life! haha. i swear. even not being able to see the stage for like a quarter of the show i still get to experience the live performance of my favourite band. i swear its the only band that i want to watch live before i die. well for the exception of the kpop stuff which i have been obsessed about for the past few years. ahaha.

im so awed by the fact that they played my favourite songs ever from the past albums. well maybe not my heart(i was waiting for that) but pressure, never let this go, thats what you get, let the flames begin and for a pessimist im pretty optimistic. haha. they played misery business as well. songs from the new album is uhm ignorance, careful, looking up, the only exception and brick by boring brick. haha. oh they played decode as well. i was waiting for playing god and feeling sorry actually. haha. well i guess i just have to listen from the album it self.

i saw many people i know. haha. from those that ive known since pri sch up to those ive known in poly. even my best friend's sister was there haha. i think no matter how much i sweat or how long i waited it was all worth it. haha..

i know ive been moody for the previous posts. i just dunno whats up with me now. haha. brain not functioning properly i guess. well i guess its another lonely holiday b4 school starts. im wondering whether i should just go out for starbucks alone or just have it take away and enjoy it at home haha.

now im craving for some korean mixed rice, bibimbap. haha. its delicious. really. now im seriously contemplating whether i should go out and buy it home. haha. wonder if its still open. damn i want me some kimchi haha. i have these weird cravings and im nt even pregnant. well i shoudnt b! haha. maybe cuz im sick i want to eat so many things cuz of my tongue.

sometimes i find it funny when u like this person and the person doesnt know it and then when that person finally finds out u no longer like that person and that everything will be awkward btwn the two of you. haha. its weird yes but its true haha. love is a silly thing but if you can last a lifetime with the person you love then its definitely true love. but i find that when people divorce after a while they still dont regret anything cuz they have given their all and there was nth else they could have done to save it. sometimes when people are in love when they are younger, they might not feel the same when they grow older if they are not meant to be.

okay ive been random today. and i guess super boring ahah no one comes to read my blog anymore cuz i dont update regularly. and when i do its either emo, about food, or just random stuff. haha. nth much on my daily life cuz nth much happens like now. ive been lying in bed since i woke up. i need to go shower and eat haha. hungry person. i might be getting bibimbap if my mum allows it. then maybe starbucks after haha. c yall later.

2010-03-03T01:18:00.001+08:00

i should sleep. but i wanna continue hearing my favourite songs first. but dear world. goodnight.

lets go for a drive.

2010-03-03T01:04:00.004+08:00

this is one of my favourite songs. its one of my all time favourite. i think when i first heard the song. i was in love with the song. i wanna thank you for introducing me to this song.

i actually made a cover of it. not that good i might add. but its been a long while since i actually had the chance to sing it. even tho i was supposed to do it with you, i made it so that i could at least dedicate it to you. thank you again my friend. here is to you.

i guess the song did have a meaning to it. hah. not the happiest but its still meaningful.

It's twelve o' clock and I need your attention
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum. the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless 'til I wake tomorrow

And if tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it
I'll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that I was meant to say

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don't I make one more wrong turn tonight, so

Say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right

All of these guards they stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around what was once innocent
It won't let me in, but I'm stronger than that
'Cause you stole my eyes and I've never looked back

Girl, last night I forgot to mention
The way that I feel, the way that I'll remember this
When we're this young, we have nothing to lose
We just the clock to beat and a hand to choose

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies
So I don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight, so

Say goodnight our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right

It's a long way down
Just fall into place and you'll fall into me
We'll make it out you'll see

So, say goodnight, our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together

And say goodnight, our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right

Vegas Skies by the Cab.

pain.

2010-03-02T23:55:00.002+08:00

i have no more energy left. i just can't do this anymore. i don't have the strength to carry on living. i just hope god will do something to make me feel better. but i don't think i deserve it anyway

i just feel like its the end of life. nth i do pleases anybody. i just am excess baggage. i dont deserve to live. should i go back to self mutilisation? no one cared b4, no one is going to care now.

it always made me feel better hurting myself. the feeling of blood flowing down your arms. the smell of the blood. the pain that you feel when the blade cuts. getting high on the blood loss.

i think there is a difference between getting hurt and feeling pain. getting hurt is most probably a bruise or a scratch kinda of feeling. but to me feeling pain always excites me. it calms me down and makes me feel that i dont need anyone else to make me feel stupid or unwanted.

i think feeling pain makes me realise that im not always going to be loved or accepted by people. like i said. no one really cared anyways. so there wont be any tragedy in me dying anyway.

crap. i just realised my tears were flowing non-stop. i guess i really have a sad life. goodnight fellow humanity.

this cruel, cruel world. when are you going to make life easier for everyone. might as well just blow up.

its been a while.

2010-01-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

currently listening to: CN Blue's cover of Drive.
current mood: still recovering.

well it really has been super duper long since ive updated and my blog has officially become dusty haha. i dont have any ides on what to write on it. school.? no. music..? no most of my music now is not for most sane humans but for overly obsessed beings haha. (i need new music) life? hah what life.? hmmmm i havent been updating this blog and the one for my class. maybe cuz i keep forgetting and ive become too busy due to schoolwork and family. haha.

i realise ive been spending so much time with my parents lately that i keep asking them to buy stuff. that is not good cuz i know only my dad works so we dont really have that much money. oh and dad got into an accident at work like a mth n a half ago. so hes been at home since then. well its still paid leave cuz it happened at work so we are grateful for that. with the result of that, we always go out to eat during my holidays and during weekends now. its good to know that my parents still think of my health. oh and i got sick twice since i was gone. once school closed and once last week. stupid. cuz i dint get to take my EMP test. mati!

being sick i was prone to getting body aches and what not. so i apparently had my pains back. after like what 2 years..? its been a hell of a ride cuz i cudnt really walk properly or sit. i had to lie down. making my way to the hospital, again doc said it was nth to worry about. it was probably pre-period pains or uneven bowel movements. but it could be also your appendix thats causing the pain. i feel like i was super screwed after i heard that. mum tells me to eat more. dad tells me to stop smoking. yes i know. but then what else can i do. im stressed out about my body ever since it started. ive been getting heavier at it and im still wondering if i can quit thoroughly or i would still be having a few sticks whenever im stressed out.

even tho finding out about the pain made me lose the part of my life that i loved the most, i still managed to bring myself up and strive to a new beginning. well now im trying not to be lazy or im trying hard to be the best at what i can do. but since the pain came back a few weeks or so ago bit by bit im starting to lose hope in life. i come back home after school. sometimes i just stay out abit more alone just to smoke a few sticks. i feel that im a failure among my own family. im a girl and i do bad things. smoke drink curse n what not. i do wanna change but then again, with my body condition like this id rather die than try and make myself happier.

seeing people who has loads of friends makes me kinda sad cuz my own friends arent really real cuz they dont talk to me much. im always excluded and stuff in class. im always by myself. i feel like my lifes a waste. but music makes me happier. esp the music that im listening to most of the time now. language barrier always can be avoided. it makes me happy cuz i get to immerse myself in the song and just be like one of those fans who worship those idols. haha. but deep in my heart i just love their music. not the fact that they are cute. that my friends is just a bonus point. their music actually has that raw talent that people keep misunderstanding. u see me as a tough cookie outside but im just a fangirl that never stops singing along to their songs. haha.

now i have to think of something to write on my other blog cuz if not i wont get the marks for it. its 10%? or more? haha. but i guess i have to stop here. i'll do the other blog some other day. cuz right now pain is overcoming my body and i cant really lift up a body part properly. and i need to be in school tmr for PRMP. hope that one i can do. haha. gonna b in school at 9. hopefully i can see him tmr. he only spoke to me once like during class uhm 3 days ago.? haha. it filled an empty spot in my life. may i write again soon. time for me to start designing. =)

sick again.

2009-11-04T13:37:00.002+08:00

currently listening to: the sound of my fan and my stomach growling.
current mood: sick and hungry.

sup. hah. im suddenly hungry again even tho i ate in school just now.. haha. damn.. i reached home at about 1 10? haha..kinda early fr me. but im feeling under the weather.. stupid uhs.. keep having migraines and shit. now im having a fever=( i shoud probably join a sport or start exercising again when i get better.. hopefully tmr i wont have to skip class.. well if i do miss it i would have mc.. haha..

school was okay i guess.. dint feel sleepy in finance this morning surprisingly even tho we were going thru accounts. haha.. my fav. gee.. 3 years take alr must take again. so sad.. nvm luhs at least gt the basics there. i went to school in the laziest attire i could find this morning. a big tee, shorts and slippers. i din even have my contacts on and i had to squint my eyes as small as possible to be able to see.. maybe thats why when i smile my eyes disappear.. haha..

damn. i wanna get apolaroid so bad.. daddy! haha. but then i nee to save up tho.. 115? i think haha... not so expensive but still im not even working.. grr.. i wanna get it so that i can take pics fr christmas this year.. hopefully i have friends to spend it with haha. but its mostly for my collection of photos when i go overseas to study.. most likely down under haha.. if only i cud get it an start collecting an do a mini scrapbook for when i go.. even so... i would only get to see pictures instead of hugging or seeing the people in person.. i would most likely miss my parents the most cuz i need mum's cooking.. even tho i dont eat all the time at home i still want to smell the food she cooks.. im gonna miss my dad's funny comments when he watches soccer.. haha.. ouh and i wont be able to eat jap food with him also.. gosh im already going to tear up..

well i just hope its going to be a productive time overseas.. will b missing everyone. haha.. esp my closest friends.. gah! okayi shud stop.. and i shud get some sleep. i look like im about to faint just now.. stomach is growling louder too haha.. see ya'll soon.

ps. i know my posts are random but kinda boring too haha

seeing is believing.

2009-10-27T21:33:00.002+08:00

current mood: enjoying life.
currently listening to: amaku hateshinaku by DBSK

wow.. today is kinda hectic.. stupid lor. haha.. came late to EMP.. had to do a dare.. walau. had my bra strap slapped on my shoulder.. haha. went fr freakin therapy after school.. so boring.. just sit there.. doing nth while heat and electromagnets transfered thru my body.. haha.. i did abit of EMP reading tho.. surprisingly.. with things on the way i took the bus 502 to town.. well i over slept till city hall apparently.. haha..

went home after round 830.. haha then kinda slept standing fr abit.. haha.. otw home saw weird things.. haha saw someone who looked like my friend whom i havent seen in years.. haha.. was weird.. then on the bus home saw this two african dudes in shiny tops waiting fr the bus.. i was trying to restrain my laughter in the bus since i was alone.. then.. dropped off frm the bus and saw this guy.. who looked like Syed Azmir frm anugerah.. i feel so weird.. haha dunno whether to believe or nt.. hahaha..

reached home.. did finance.. urgh theory.. haha was such a stressed moment.. but then finished.. looked thru facebook.. then saw DBSK news on the net.. kinda glad they would most prob b staying tgtr.. haha. well my posts are always boring and uneventful.. and very wordy... nvm.. i c ya'll soon..

stutter.

2009-10-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

current mood: aching n sleepy
currently listening to: the only exception by paramore.

today i feel so lazy somehow.. just the thought of updating just made me feel lethargic.. i dunno if its me or if its the therapy sessions ive been going to.. its just weird cuz ive nvr been very tired n sleepy everytime i go out.. anywho.. i still have to go fr therapy tmr.. so super lazy.. aha.. school was alright i guess since i cud update during lecture haha.. went to rp after that to watch sp ruggers's final match for pol-ite games this year.. they actually did great haha... im proud of em.. but i wont be seeing most of them after this year cuz they are graduating nxt year.. kinda sad cuz they are good players haha. i miss sports..

wow.. i really do miss playing sports.. soccer, netball, and others... the adrenaline rush excites me and its what keeps me motivated to play.. having internal pains isnt smth that is fun cuz i need to execise to be healthier and not go fr stupid therapy sessions... haiz.. i miss shooting the ball into the net with the defender 3 feet infront of me.. haha.. i miss how my netball coach, ms gan screams at me when i dont get the ball in.. that kind of pressure always gives me the confidence to put in the goal.. but my appendix or what ever is on the right side of my lower abdomen is always hurting if i overwork myself or i think too much.. it kinda sucks for me cuz sports were the only thing i had growing up.. i was addicted to sports ever since i was like 4 or 5... it was like what i was supposed to do..

on the other hand.. music is also a calling for me i guess.. but then i know that im never good enough for it.. i cant play any instruments even if i tried.. i cant sing well.. but i guess some of my friends beg to differ.. one thing why i cant succeed in music is that i cant play instruments.. two. i dont have anyone to perform with.. three. i dont have any songs of my own. four. i cant really write much cuz i cant compose.. five.. im not worth having such talents.. ahaha.. well 5 main reasons why music dont do good for me either.. now i just dont know what the hell to do with my life..

maybe i'll just follow my dad's plan for me.. finish poly get a diploma.. then go australia and get a degree. come back find a stable job and save for marriage. then get married and move into new house.. then get kids and live happily with my family.. well i guess that might be the plan for me.. sometimes when my mum asks me when i plan to get married.. i always stutter to ans her.. when my dad asks me hows my studies going i always stutter too.. its just smth that is meant to wait until i have an end product to deliver to them.. guess i'll have to wait for another year..

its been a long day. and i have to get some sleep fr 8 am class tmr.. good day people.

grrr.

2009-10-26T14:17:00.003+08:00

Current mood: flu-ish
Currently listening to: stupid lecture..

Im actually sitting here in lecture looking over the whole lecture hall frm the corner.. Im kinda nt really listening to the lecturer cuz its nt worth listening cuz shes boring. Haha..

looking down on my coursemates im thinking why im here.. I dont really listen and im kinda not really the kind that will always b super lazy to do stuff. Haha. But then i will still do work luhs i guess.. Dont really wanna dissappoint anyone haha..

Gotta go listen nw. Ciao.

almost.

2009-10-25T20:00:00.003+08:00

current mood: kinda thinking.
currently listening to: shelter bye jaejoong & yoochun

its been can i say mths since ive blogged. its been hectic.. well most of it was lazy.. well ive been living under a rock half these times and ive been spending most of my time outside hanging out at the playground near my house.. its kinda sad cuz i have no were else to go. its just that my friends are always there to hangout with but then im just sitting there doing nth but stare and drink my green tea.. ive been kinda oblivious to the fact that i miss something that was almost there.. it just hit me just now when i was reading and blog hopping. reality is that im the kind of person that nvr really finishes what she started..

examples will be my school.. i dropped out of biz to go into dmc.. i dint finish what i started but im trying to finish this.. another is this wonderful guy i met in my year one of dmc.. hes very nice.. always there to talk to and always there to cheer me up.. ive been neglecting him ever since holidays started or just abit b4 that cuz im busy doing nth with my life.. i miss the times we talk and joke around.. i miss the times that we meet up to get our fav drinks at starbucks and just sit and b silly. i miss the times when i hear him playing the guitar and playing a few songs that i fancy.. i just miss hugging him whenever i see him around.. but the one thing i miss most is his goofy smile he gives me everytime he sees me.. well i cant do anything much cuz i know he might have someone there for him.. someone so much better.. he deserves someone better.. he deserves someone that will always be there to see him on stage.. to have drinks with him at starbucks and just have a laugh about everything.. to just goof around with him and hug him when ever..

i guess im fine with everything now.. life love work play.. its all good.. i do miss what i used to have but i still have to concentrate on the present.. its a good start fr me cuz its smth new.. im starting to cut down on those things that makes u have cancer.. im starting to walk around more and enjoy fresh air.. im starting to get into music again but its going to be a halfway thing for me cuz i know im not good enough.. and im starting to realise that i have to live life one step at a time to enjoy lifes goodness. maybe i should start getting myself a drink at starbucks alone.. i dont mind.. it would b kinda refreshing.

i guess life isnt supposed to be just happy endings.. its kinda like hardships and suffering and heartbreak and also death.. im beat.

white.

2009-05-25T20:10:00.003+08:00

current mood: hyperventilating.
currently listening to: Juliette by SHINee.=)

wow. today was awesome! hahahaha. ZOMG! hahahah. today started off boring. skipped gems again sadly. haha me n sakinah were too lazy! hahaha. but then we went to eat subway in the morning. well i did sakinah just drank her bubble tea hahahha. then went fr MMR lecture. ms kwa was as usual teaching us hahaha. i was busy understanding and weiting was drawing all over my notes hahaha. nth to do that girl. kinda went fr stupid OM lecture after but i was really just doodling my notebook lor. hahaha. omg. then after lecture went to do MMR. haha. t20 was freaking hot. hahaha. then we went to t2131. no class but we were allowed to stay in and do our work. we did most of the work there luhs i think. met sarah fr abit b4 her class starts. saw him in the other room =))) hahaaha. then talk2 then after do work again. after that returned ke to ms kwa. said bye then walked to mrt to meet sakinah. hahahaha..

me and sakinah went to eat. but then the greatest thing happened to me! hahahahaha. i saw my long time crush. omg! he was wearing a white wife beater(male ver of tank top) omg really lah he looked super hot! hahahahhah i cudnt take it my heart literally stopped fr a sec haha. haha i was smiling like hell! omg i really cudnt believe it. he was super tall standing nxt to me ahaaha. but he dint say hi. i was a lil sad but then i heard that he has a gf. but i dunno haha. i dont care. hes nice anyways hahahha. but im stil smiling till now.... omg!!! hahahah okay ain. after almost a mth nvr update u blog about him haha. geez. hahaha nah im no stalker but then yeah ive been crushing on him ever since i entered sp. omg! hahahaha. cant wait to stop hyperventilating and talk to him ahahhaha.

back track to 23rd may, sat.

it was our performance at belzone me n tams. haha. it was kinda okay. ms kwa n sakinah came down to support us! omg so cool. tams parents too. i was soo happy that finally i got to perform infront of my best friends. i dedicated this one song, My Hero to my late grandfather and guess what i almost cried during performance. well tammy had to do most of the talking cuz i was just too nervous and emotional. my voicewas shaky fr the 2nd half of the 2nd song. i cud feel it. i felt good after performing esp our medly. heartbreaker n sexy back! woo! hahahaha. i added adlibs impromtu cuz i wanted to show what i cud do. well praises were just once or twice coming frm my best friends which was a lil disappointing but then again i know im not that good luhs i cried shortly after my perf cuz i was kinda taunted by my friends. they dint know but then i did burst into tears. sakinah tams comforted me. farhan and fadhli also comforted me. they sang a beautiful song fr their late grandma. i almost cried then too. omg. i just want to say a big thanks to those who came down to support us even tho u guys had busy schedules.

well i gtg. im almost crying writing about it cuz its still fresh in my mind even tho its been a year plus. i love him so much that i hope hes proud of me. see ya everyone.

sakae =)

2009-04-28T23:07:00.003+08:00

current mood: aching.
currently listening to: well nothing cuz i just finished watching an episode.

okay this week of school was okay so far. haha. monday had gems. then had mmr then om then mmr again. this weeks mmr tutorial was effing funny lah haha. super fun. we asked so many different questions ranging frm disgusting and kinky and also we learnt what is a c string hahaha. sakinah told us what it is. apparently u just have to *kiap*(i know right) it there and it stays haha. haha amazing invention. haha. go check it out ppl. even ms kwa is surprised lor.

today was okay i guess. had DMA make up since fri is labour day =) wee. hee longer weekend. but more rehersal time. and project time. anyways. uhm then had OM. haha it was cool tho but weiting showed me and sakinah a drug case in south korea. damn it was an actor lor. charged for possesion and another girl fr use. like wth right. god. cant these ppl have a normal life. spend on stupid things with hard earned money. geez.

then after school me n weiting went to eat at sakae. hahaha. it was so filling. damn awesome lah. haha. had so much sushi. and i ate a whole lot of salmon. diff kinds too. uhm sushi, sashimi and uhm fried. =) we were so damn full but we ate dessert like we werent full. hahaha. damn. but had udon. then had sushi and more sushi. had chawanmushi and then had cha soba. haha. we almost wanted to try the snail. haha. but we were scared that we would puke everything out again hahaha.

then im home. oh b4 that we went to look around causeway luhs to see what we can buy haha. just window shopping. but over all the highlight was uhm dinner at sakae uhs. so cool! hee. kk i gtg. im sleepy alr. nights!

Night Out.

2009-04-25T00:42:00.005+08:00

current mood: tired
curently listening to: eyes set to kill - darling

today was fun. haha. well went to sch at 8. had DMA @ DMS. damn cool. haha watched jerry maguire! SHOW ME THE MONEY! haha. then had CA1 briefing too. haha. almost late fr Cons B lecture today haha. we then ran to the toilet haha cuz DMS was damn cold! haha well todays lecture not that bad luhs. quite funny. gt few ppl crash lecture. damn noisy also lor. but then after me weiting joanna n yi jing went to watch 17AGAIN. haha.

zac efron was so HOT!! haha. it was so funny! omg me n joanna were like spazzing thru out the whole movie. i think the people nxt to me were like wth is wrong with these two hahaha. then we went to solmart at cine. haha weiting bought junior magazine which i begged her fr the 2PM poster haha. and i got it!! haha yay! hahahah now i can stare at them everytime i wake up =)

then after movie went to taka. had dong dae mun chicken. haha. damn nice. but then i had to finish up weiting and joanna's chicken since they cudnt finish. so i ended up not eating dinner with amira all. went to meet amira hanfei darren weekiat tyler n gerald after. went to haji lane. haha. so fun. hanfei left early. then we saw these fire breathers. damn cool! hahaha.

otw home train ride was with that annoying darren haha. he can talk about anything and not feel bored. well expected frm dmc students lah. then reached home and was nagged at again. haiz. im already turning 19 soon and they still treat me like im in sec sch =(. i really cant believe it.

tmr going over to tams place to practice fr Connec@DMC. hopefully its going to be okay. my heart races everytime i think about it. =( haiz. just wish i wasnt so nervous. haha. okay me needs to sleep cuz im damn tired. haha. nights my fellow ppl. and u guys shoud watch 17AGAIN. haha its damn awesome. can see zac efron shirtless. and also in a hot leather jacket.*melts* haha. he somehow is better here than in HSM. aha. serious! okay bye!

First Week Of School!!

2009-04-23T21:04:00.006+08:00

current mood: hungry
currently listening to: Stereophonics - Dakota =)

wow. after like uhm 3 mths of not posting. i finally stopped being so lazy to update it once again hahaha. i know u have been asking me to update haha =)) so here i go.

fist day of sch on monday was fun. we all thought that our lecturers would be so effed up but they are actually cool. well most of them anyways haha. monday i had gems. kinda stupid the one i chose with sakinah. but had no other choice sia. haha. nvr the less me with me bestfriend haha. so its cool. but the lect abit on the lame side tho. haha. make jokes that she laugh on her own haha. then had MMR lecture. haha. ms kwa was so cool luhs. haha. even tho we were asked not to be late her lecture was quite interesting. then OM lecture was abit effed up uhs. the lecturer was kinda anal that we were late. but then cant blame us cuz we had our lecture like at LT17b while his was at MLT 12. haha. damn. then MMR tutorial was fun! hahaha. we had to do "research" on our juniors haha. so technically blog stalking. but we're not supposed to say that. the correct term is like "research" haha. damn cool. saw so many things written by our dear DMC juniors. hahahaha.

tuesday was alright i guess. started at 1. had OM tutorial and then had FW tutorial after with ms trudy. haha. it was fun tho. had mini presentations in class on articles we had to find. haha. so funny luhs u see the diff presentations by diff groups. ahha. we had simple ones. monotonous ones. flashy ones. haha weird ones like jade's group one "kradam" haha. damn funny luhs jade. tues we went fr free cone day! woo! haha. it was originally me weiting only. then end up joanna sakinah and denzel followed too! haha. everyone had chocolate except weiting. haha. then we had dinner at KFC at PS hahaha. so funny mans.

weds was short and sweet. haha. went to mac at FC2 to eat lunch. then went fr Law lecture. then after that we like stayed in sch abit. haha. me weiting joanna and jade were waiting fr sakinah to end her meeting then we went home. haha train ride home was fun as usual and weiting gt her micky yoochun poster frm wenting our senior. haha and her big bang poster too. haha. so cool. i dint get a jaejoong poster tho cuz no more =( nvr the less it was cool. yoochun was very useful since it was so hot we used it as a fan hahaha.

today was okay surprisingly haha. we thought that it would be very full of anal-ity(is that even a word)and effed up moments but it was actually cool. haha. lecturers were awesome. haha. morning was law tutorial. which apparently i was late for. haha. damn. i was like 30 mins late. i over slept. stupid me. lucky she wasnt angry but i do have to go fr tea with her. haha. then was Cons B tutorial. haha i swear the lecturer was like yanhan 30 years frm now. haha. same perky-ness level. hahaha. seriously! even sakinah n wilson agreed hahahha. then after break was Cons B lecture. haha. wow seriously he was serious. haha.

but b4 that when the seniors came out. omg i saw the cutest senior ever haha. well technically we were of the same age luhs haha 90er. but still hes in year 3! i was like woah! he looked diff frm he normally does with tshirt n berms. i dont stalk him tho even if i want to haha. its kinda creepy to stalk guys who wont really give u a time of day haha.

anyway. lecture was first half an hour of lecture then proper lecture started. haha. damn. he was so serious and scary first half of lecture. but then he was kinda cracking jokes with us even tho he said we're different from the seniors. hahaha. but hes cool lah. sadly we dont have him as out tutorial lecturer. then was ms kwa's lesson haha. MMR was fun today cuz we all got to disturb hanfei with one specific blog post hahahahhah! i think all the year 2s will know what im talking about and of course ms kwa. haha. if u are reading this ms kwa kudos to you for bringing that up hahaha. =D we are happy people! haha. then after lecture ended me n tams went to choose songs for Connect@Dmc our wonderful event happening in 2 weeks time. haha. damn cool luhs. ahaha. we chose one song alr. need to choose another soon haha.

well i posted icons cuz sakinah complains that my posts are too dull haha. no pics. haha. i dont take much pics tho. but i did take a whole lot during Freshman party. go see my facebook hahaha. i gtg eating dinner! see ya when i see ya. haha.

finally. =)

2009-01-26T15:01:00.002+08:00

current mood: errr tired?
currently listening to: Paramore Final Riot Album!

wow. in about a mth and im finally gracing you people with my presence. hahaha. such a stupid long time. ive been super bored this cny cuz i was alone this weekend. dang. my parents arent even back home yet luhs. im impatiently waiting fr money to be transfered to my account so i can pay the lovely young lady whom im getting my 4 lens korean disderi motion sampler frm. =)that kind soul is kinda late cuz i have to pay her by today dang. but no fret i just have to be patient. yah! hurry! hahahaha

ive been so caught up in looking at cameras that i dont really look after my health. im having my polaroid on hold since im broke. but lucky me the person im getting my polaroid frm is such a sweetheart. =)) it gives me time to save up. hahahaha. dang im hungry. well i think i know now what i wanna get fr my bday haha cameras. since im gonna work i'll have the money and time to get my cameras. hahaha. weeee cant wait to work. =) i really want my dad to get me this one polaroid thats being sold in the photoshop at causeway point. ive been eyeing on that one fr a while now. just hope he will get it fr me when i ask frm him again.

since ive been super mia this mths i make a vow that i shall try and update my blog once in a while. haha of course i need someone to remind me. =))im such a lazy ass. haha. weds is gonna be a long day. morning is rohanah's class. after that will have to digitize the reshooted scene and after that will be stupid gems. grrr. i dun like it cuz there's this on guy who's kinda desperate. nt to say much but then he keeps throwing himself onto me. its kinda annoying. it was funny at first but then its just creepy now. geez. hes worst than jordan i tell u. gah!

yah! bozo! leave me alone lah. im not interested and like urgh! i even made up some fucked up story saying that im dating this dude who has a gf but then he doesnt care what his gf thinks he still wanna date me. hahaha. dang im so evil. but then its to show him that im not even fucking available and i am a bad person being with someone who alr has a gf. dang. it just kinda slipped u know. hes like a fucking mosquito that u wanna kill cuz its so annoying.

yah! enuf about that. imma go change and update my blog so yeah. haha. have fun reading. and have a happy chinese new year. =)

wow.

2008-12-19T10:52:00.002+08:00

current mood: flashing my teeth happy =)
currently listening to: SHINee A.MI.GO. Repackaged album =)

uwah! such a long and hard week hahaha. we had make up class last thursday. hahaha. 10 freaking am in the morning. and i stayed up late to write lyrics fr the freaking film but no one clued me in to the fact that they are not doing a music vid already. geez thanks ah. then after that i think we went home. haha i not sure sia. i cant rmbr what happened this whole week that i dint write. well. what to do haha. STM. i have a freaking short term memory. hahaha..

weds. 17 dec. haha. we had a screening of 18 grams of love. its a local film so it was freaking awesome hahaha! the storyline was so cute and sweet and romantic. it makes me wanna write love letters now haha. then after that we had christmas partay at andrew's studio. hahaha. it was freaking awesome lah. we played nintendo wii. tot there was gonna be guitar hero or smth but i wud totally suck at it hahahaha. then we had gift exchanges haha. i got a starbucks tumbler. i have one of the same design at home somewhere haha. sakinah gt a memo thing haha. everyone got different gifts haha. andrew got turkish delights. i wish i had them. they are my fav dessert. hahaha.

then otw home fiona and jit learned new malay words aka mampos siol and mampat sial. haha. they are hilarious we took super alot alot of pics haha. all on facebook ppl hahaha. ate with sakinah at mac when we reached adm that night. then met up with andy also at adm and he sent me home haha.

ystd was quite fun and super boring haha. sorry hannah. went to her bbq ystd and like all not enthu i think my class chalet was more fun haha. =P at night we played daite. haha. dunno how to spell it but yeah u get the game. haha. the funny thing was when i was about to lose i won. geee such luck ystd haha. ate chocolates alot aso ystd hahaha. my mum has been super angry at me fr eating too much sweet stuff. she was like "what's this?" pointing to an empty mug which i ate icecream frm. "dont eat too much i know u gt sweet tooth but i dont want u to get diabetes" i was like awww but hello i only had abit of the ice cream. haha

ystd was a cute dorky romantic sort of night. haha. only sakinah knows why and i aint telling haha. bluek! then i reached home at ard 1 plus last night went online then went to sleep at ard 3. and freaking bugger i woke up at 9 plus today. like my body has its own personal alarm clock. geez. i dunno what o do so early in the morning lah. haiz. so i got stuck updating my blog and watching japanese dramas. sorry =P im still way addicted to it haha. okay i wanna continue now. c ya.

majite?!?!?!

2008-12-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

current mood: in pain
currently listening to: nothing really. complete silence.

wow. 10 days nvr post i feel so empty haha. well. what happened during this week and a half was projects projects and more projects. dvpa was a killer i tell u. stupid script. well i changed a bit of the storyline and scenes and also the song. hah. i know what ure thinking. why. cuz the song was a lil off. the storyline was also a lil off. and i had to change a few scenes to make do with my new storyline. well what to do. at least i handed in good quality work. ahahaha. but really. i finished it in like 4 days flat and only had 8 hrs of sleep during that 4 days. and then when it was due. we were told we had an extra day to finish up everything. so those who cudnt finish were lucky. damn them.

so now. im like asking bay to help me write a song fr the vid since we have copyright issues. ahhaha. damn. meaning i have to sing the song. hopefully everything goes well. prays fr gd luck. haha. but im kinda stressed up about it anyways. haiz.

so just now was okto. was fun and all haha. went with janna atikah amira and gerald. haha. so fun. i had to shut atikah up fr like half he time we were tgtr hahaha. she kept interrupting everyone hahaha. gee. but on the way home on the train. this lady was staring me down like i was disgusting. she even gave me that disgusted face. issit wrong fr me to wear a freaking tshirt and jeans out..? issit wrong to be skinny. i dont like it that im skinny. too much attention fr unwanted people. her friend dint even care that i was there. she just went to sleep. geez and her friend is enhanced beauty if u know what i mean.

this morning went to meet andy. well not morning lah. afternoon. hahaha. followed him to get his shoes fr his dnd haha. dint c him fr quite a while i think since last fri or smth. speaking of last fri. i went to c a hiphop gig at esplanade. haha. it was fun since i gt to meet my friends whom ive not seen fr 2 mths now. haha. i missed them so much. one of them even sent me home in her dad's car. hahahaha.

okay now ive gotta go to sleep. im having a very2 bad pain in my stomach and like i dont even want to go to the loo luh. smth must be wrong uhs i think. okay nights ppl. hahaha. i try to update everyday lah kays hahaha.

ola.

2008-11-30T22:18:00.005+08:00

current mood:okay2 lah.
currently listening to: well im watching youtube vids lah.

today my post is gonna be like venting and like stupid stuff hahaha. well friday was sucky. cuz my freaking parents were like urgh! they spammed me when i was clearly reaching home. geez. my phone was about to die uhs. the were asking where i was. so i said i was at the interchange reaching home soon. they kept spamming me asking where exactly i was so i said im already on the bus just now at the interchange. once i reached home my dad asked about my laptop. i said it was fine. then he went all anal on me. and asked where was i. i said interchange luhs where else. then he said do u know how many interchanges there are in sg. i was like geez. where do u think i am bedok? i live in freaking wlds lah. geez.

ystd was worse. my mum was like where u going i said out. then she asked this late? what are u gonna do. i said im gonna be with my frens. then she told me not to be late. then she was rambling to herself. i went to visit andy at work ystd. then we went for dinner at marina. but there was a bike convention at flyer. wow. was it awesome. the bikes that people bring to show off were amazing. so many diff ones. and i saw this cute baby blue vespa. omg! i wanted to kiss it i tell u haha. then there were band performances. not that good i tell ya. haha. then when we were having dinner at bk at marina. there were this group of like mats. hah like so noisy! then we went home. both of us were sleeping on the train. then we like funny cuz our heads were all over the place. andy dropped at khatib n i went over to bay's chilled fr a bit and i reached home at 1130 and my mum was okay and she did not get angry.

friday was SP STAR and also the stupid web publishing test. haha. damn the test was fine. and the show was awesome! hahaha. damn. ming hui won. hes a tourism year 3 student. nigel's classmate. hahaha. and i was teased by yanhan n wilson fr sitting with andy. geez. what do u expect frm them hahahaha. atikah's bf was okay luhs but sucky cuz his mat friends were there. grrr. then somehow atikah broke down cuz her bf was talking to his ex. i had to comfort her fr a bit until his mat friends come out and like entertain her. hahaha serious mats i tell u. hahaha.

today was boring cuz i stayed home but i made two gifs frm the pics we took at face off. hahahaha. funny. i think its on my facebook. haha so i'll c u folks soon and gdnights.

wee

2008-11-26T22:30:00.004+08:00

current mood: abit of anger abit of okay haha
curently listening to: SHINee(again!)

today was okay i guess. haha. gems was boring. this dude in class likes me and like now all the guys in the class knows. grr. hm at least i still have andy and sakinah and all my other friends to cheer me up haha. grr. we were supposed to draw our ideal partner today and uhm write about how they should look, their personality and material possesions. damn. that dude write about me! grrr.! and i drew frm inspiration frm shinee!! haha. jonghyun! taemin! minho! key! onew! haha. their hair. their body. their faces. their everything! haha. damn they are awesome! im being so gay right now but i dont care!!! hahahaha

tmr there;s news writing CA1. damn u. i dont want! and our lecturer was like last min mark our papers. shit. now like how to say all of us are screwed. ahaha. we dont really know much. but okay luhs i guess. hopefully can pass. stupid html test is on fri. gr classes end at 11 but paper's at 5.15. grrr and my laptop was freaking annoying today. i switched it on fr like 4 or 5 hrs frm 4 plus and it like switch off by itself grr. it happened 8 times! ahhh! i was so freaking pissed.

my dads gonna go by acer tmr. gonna get my laptop fixed b4 test hopefully. but then it still cant be sent thru black board. how! that stupid teacher nvr give me the details. grr im so effing pissed. tmr i go ask her. better tell me. if not i cant do the freaking paper.

i had my dark cherry mocha frappe just now. haha. it was goood! hahahahaha. im geting addicted to it i think. its the same as my green tea frappe! hahahaha. hmm i guess i go off first. tired luhs. here;s a pic of SHINee for girls to drool over.!

clockwise frm top left:taemin, jonghyun, key, minho, onew.

gah.

2008-11-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

current mood: abit of happiness and pissy-ness
currently listening to: SHINee

ola people. ahaa. for sooo long ive been not posting hahaha. its cuz one im busy two im lazy when i had the time three i just gotten a new charger. hahaha. damn. but now my laptop is being a bitch cuz if i dont put in the batt when its charging it wud somehow just suddenly switch off. damn. haha but its fine anyways. daddy promised a new laptop soon so i'll just wait haha. since its christmas he said that he might get me a new one. the acer aspire one. its small compact and also light haha. and even tho it has like 1 gb ram i can always upgrade it hahaha. i like it alot.

so far sch's been great luhs haha. like hmmm mmsp was a blast! haha. cuz after that i spent time with vik ghaz andy marcus tash farhan nigel. hahaha. we had so much fun haha. cuz its been so long about a year since ive hung out with them like last fri haha. reached home at 3 that night and got a scolding frm my mum hahaha. but what ever. once in a while only uhs. hahahaha.

sat was the freaking face off thing. it started out okay luhs. haha. not bad but then sleazer and trickster had to be cancelled frm the freaking schedule cuz one girl frm my group got freaked out. damn her! shes like a freaking minah luhs. act so tough then somehow she got freaked out. she even asked fr her mum. grrr. but get to c this sexy hunk haha. damn. i think tams and sakinah shud know who luhs. hahaha. =))))

then weekends were boring other than face off. ystd was fun ahaha. went out with andy and like ate pizza hut at marina. haha. since someone had to go to work after that hahaha. geez. then after that i went over to bay's to chill luhs hahaha. since my laptop wasnt gonna work anyways with out my charger.

today was boring. i went to sch. then after sch met andy at jurong east to go home. he cut his hair today. wonder how its gonna be like haha then i went home straight after sch. haha. reached home at 7. showered and watched tv. watched oktolive today. haha. julz and candice were the hosts. julz is way shorter than candice hahahaha. so funny. but today was about cup stacking and skipping. they're not really sports but thay were kinda cool hahaha. kids beating national bball players and martial artists was fun to watch hahaha.

okay then tmr i have gems. freaking 2 hrs of sch haha. and then like go home like wtf right. hahahaha. my eyes are super heavy now. hahahaha. nights everyone.!

2008-11-09T23:20:00.002+08:00

i feel so damn gay posting this song but its a great song that has meaning haha. its korean hiphop but they don't sound korean tho. haha. look them up yaw.

I never knew I’d find a love so true

This one right here, is just for you
Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there

I always see you when I close my eyes, you’re on my mind
So can’t you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you’re my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I’ll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you’re my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I’ll never break your heart “no”, so baby don’t let go

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I’m yours
And that your mine
That’s how we got this far
Let’s never be apart
Girl, you’re my queen
I’m here for you
‘Cuz you’re my everything

You always make me feel like everything’s gonna be alright
Wit the things you do, becuz it’s you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I’ll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I’ll never break your heart “no”, so baby don’t let go

uh… baby!
you know I’d walk them miles
climb mountains switch up styles
all I wanna do, is be with you |
ain’t no matter what, where and how
[right here and now] we can both get down [straight work it out] yeah
like that sound bump ‘n grindin’ perfect timin’
let’s dine and both be proud yeah yeah yeah

gonna take you on a joyride today
me and you stay true never hesitate
to make love — sho nuff
you’re the only one I’m ever thinkin’ of
just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
as we go through the motions damn it’s great
to make love — sho ’nuff
we’re gonna take it to the end and that’s what’s up

You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, that’s where I will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I’ll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I’ll never break your heart “no”, so baby don’t let go

I’m nothing without you I’m nothing without you girl

Make Love by BigBang

2008-11-09T23:19:00.001+08:00

Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I dont know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, oh you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, oh you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I knew, But now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought

I Caught Myself by Paramore

2008-11-09T23:18:00.000+08:00

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something that I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

Decode by Paramore.

my thoughts you can't decode.

2008-11-09T23:05:00.002+08:00

current mood: happy
currently listening to: twilight soundtrack.

ola everyone. haha. omg today sooooo fun haha. went out with andy just now. haha. we went to vivo. window shop around. then like went to visit khai at his workplace. then b4 that he called he sed " you want to visit me or visit charles(his cute store manager)?" i say"you lah duh. what for. i dint even know he working today." then he says"see u sound excited already wah like this sia u" so i say" wth im coming to visit u slenge bye." he can be such an ass sometimes but hes still my bestfriend. haha. what to do. so went to say hi to him talked2 then sed hi to his charles then charles asked me to go follow khai to get his stuff fr his dinner and dance. haha omg so funny. haha. hes so sweet too. haha. even tho hes 26 still got chance mah. ahaha. omg ain in ur dreams. haha.

then me and andy went to the sky garden to chill and apparently when we sat down at this corner, more and more ppl came and sat there too. we were like okay wth is going on haha. then we went off to city hall. when we're at city hall andy was telling me that sheryl asked him about me. like she was asking" how u and ain..?" then i was like how the hell did she know sia! omg. haha. apparently now almost all the dmc seniors know that we're going out and stuff. haha. omg i tot it was on the DL man. haha. shizzz.

then we went to marina. chilled. got my dark cherry mocha. hahaha. nice sia that one. haha. then we went to the esplanade rooftop haha. then we went home. and apparantly, once he alighted at khatib he was brought out my ezlink and other stuff with him haha. so he had to take the train again and like pass it to me. so he ended up going home by bus frm wlds haha. so funny. then i went to meet bay. we chilled till like ard 10plus then she cabbed me home haha. lazy ass. so now im here.

as u can see my new song for my blog is decode. acoustic version is soooooo damn good! hayley's voice sounds so pure. the whole twilight album's awesome so i cant wait fr the movie!! hahaha kya. once u hear robert pattinson aka edward sing. u'll melt. hes a damn good singer. hahaha. and yes i've finally gotten my new phone! its a viewty. and apparently my mum got the same phone cuz ystd there was an offer. $0 to upgrade. haha. so we took that chance. haha. my dad found the phone diff to use but my mum begs to differ. ahahaha. sorry daddy u cant use the phone. so my mum was happy that she finally got the phone back aha.

so now imma go off to bed. hah tmr schling at 11 haha. so nights everyone! enjoy decode!

a sudden rush.

2008-11-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

current mood: tired!
currently listening to: ne-yo closer.

gomenasai! wah i long time nvr update. i wanted to update but cuz of the rush in my dvpa story board i cudnt find the time to blog. okay so this week was fine i guess. project finally over for now but another one is coming soon.

monday.
i went to sch as usual. and kinda stone all day. haha. classes was boring but i was very productive haha. well only since i had two lectures and rohanah's class. after that i think i went home. or i stayed over in sch fr a bit. haha. im not too sure cuz i cudnt rmbr. hahahaha

tuesday.
sch as per normal. i think i missed lecture in the morning. or did i. nope2. i went to class. haha. then had econs tutorial. damn boring. i was on facebook the whole time. i was even talking to julz on face book haha. den went for break. and then went to trudy's class. then i went to okto live to watch andy! haha. he sed it was sweet of me to come down right after sch when my sch ended at 6. ahaha. i told him it was fine cuz hes a friend so i always cheer on for my friends. haha.then had dinner with him and went home.

today.
wah today damn shiok i tell u. only 8 went for web publishing and it dint include me haha. then for presentation of my dvpa storyboard. it sucked! hah. at first he told us he dint want to know the story of our boards. he just said explain the frames. then he contradicted it by saying that he wants to know the storyline. so i had to repeat my story all over frm the beginning. i felt much better after that but he shot me a million ques. haiz. i think i fail seh. hmm nvm2. then i dint even go lecture cuz i was damn lazy. so i went to town with andy since he had nth to do also. we went to centrepoint starbucks and we tried the new drinks toffee nut frappe and dark cherry mocha frappe. wow. i prefer the dark cherry one rather than the toffee nut cuz its too sweet. andy prefer otherwise. hahaha. =P then otw home. like omg i leaned my head back and slept. my head started to go to the left all the time and i had to adjust myself everytime. so andy was sweet enough to put my head on his shoulder himself. but then i still kept falling off frm his shoulder and he had to help me put my head comfortably on his shoulder again. and the thing is. he dint even wake me up at khatib where he was supposed to get down. i poked him and like asked him why he dint wake me up. he sed its okay he cud just go down to wlds with me. i was like awww. aha. he asked me to get to sleep again. once we reached wlds he poked me to wake me up haha. funny. so he ended up taking the bus home which was more convenient for him haha. then here i am now. i reached home at ard 9 plus and went online. checked my mail. went to eat. then now im sleepy. hahaha.

tomorrow nov 7.
wow. tmr is going to be a sucky day. well i hope not. haha its his class tmr. so i have to stay awake. tmr wud be us elections again cuz obama won! haha. im thankful for that really cuz we're gonna c some drastic changes in the states. its going to be awesome lah. haha. so tmr im just gonna wear tshirt n shorts since im super lazy hahaha.

im going off to bed now folks. so goodnights sweetdreams.

nth much.

2008-10-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

current mood:blah.
currently listening to: HSM3

wow today is very unproductive. hah. okay. ystd was fun. went over to do abit of recording at eds and like had fun. after that we had icecreamchefs. awesome lah seh. hahaha. i had greentea with marshmallows. eds treat =P he had kinder bueno. hahaha. now im like craving for it. hah. its only 2326hrs and i feel like its super2 late. well. if u might have noticed i have posted lyrics b4 this. there's actually a story behind it. but..

well should i tell u? maybe not haha. its a secret. if i tell u then it wont be a secret anymore wud it. hah. its actually describes how i feel when i see this particular person lah. but then i cant point finger to who but all i can say is hes older. by how many years or mths i cant say. ahaha. so he might be just a mth older than me or he can be 6 yrs older. haha. u decide. all i can say is he might be the right one for me. well im hoping he is. cuz hes such a gentleman and such2 a sweet friend any girl cud ask for. one note. hes not gay. nor is he a metrosexual hah. he has a good sense of style and stuff and hes hot. hah. okay2 lah uh.

ive gotta go now yeah. nights sweetdreams everyone.

can i have this dance.

2008-10-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

current mood:blushing.
currently listening to: BoA

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

can i have this dance by Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens

picture perfect.!

2008-10-26T01:14:00.007+08:00

current mood: ecstatic=)
currently listening to: HSM3 Soundtrack. =P

zomg! today was fun! hahahahaha. first went out at 330 to meet fatal n his gf at 430. his gf was on time but he was 30 mins late! omg he made me wait! of all people. i dont like to wait hor. he owes me big time. took pics for him for his art pieces for his o levels. damn this guy loves to cam whore. i'll post the pics up at the end =))

then went to meet andy! hahaha. at centrepoint first. then we had starbucks free of course then we went walking ard to heeren then to kino. then we went to singapore flyer. saw ghaz there he was working haha. =)) with his hair long he looks diff haha better infact. hahaha. n he looks bigger now. haha. this is the result of eating almost 4 times a day. haha. i think lah he still does that. then me n andy went on the flyer. my first time. haha my virgin ride.=) now im no longer a virgin OF the SG Flyer. hahaha. but it was fun. took loads of pics. hahaha. will post it after this blog.

then he sent me home then im here. i ate supper already so im super full and sleepy. tmr im going over to eds to do abit of music making hahaha. i cant wait for that. and yeah we gonna have subway tmr fr lunch b4 going to his place. hahaha. its gonna be awesome. so now im off. nights sweetdreams people!

messing ard.

my fav.

me n andy =)

i like the colour

view from above.

nice.

swirleys.

vortex.

nice effect.

i like the angle.

sorry but the monkey is family.

fatal n shasha

hahaha.

i like this.

opp cafe cartel raffles city.

effing stupid.

2008-10-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

current mood:pissed
currently listening to: all that remains.

today started of normal. had ivp in the morn. then was disturbed again by the lecturer. but he made the lesson interesting somehow. i dint even feel like sleeping. then after sch met irah. went to watch high sch musical. haha. omg it was fun. hahha. then after the movie. went straight to pasir ris to faris's hse. did up a couple of songs. well tried to haha. but he sed he'd scrap off the one we made just now and make a new one after his os. i cant wait!

otw home. i was kinda mad. cuz the guy who keeps msging me was angry at me dat i dint stay on at cathay to give him back his stuff. i was like dude hello u dont own me nor am i a part of ur life in any way. im just a girl u happen to like and happen to msg and who happen to have ur things since u "conveniently" put them in my bag. he was like why cant u msg me the rest of the day. i was like hello i was in sch one thing then i had a movie. then i had to rush to pasir ris. freaking pasir ris! do have some sense lah. ppl busy cuz ppl schling not like you no sch. im freaking pissed off when guys do that. just lay off. urgh!

now i have no freaking mood. nights everyone.

i'll rock you rolla.

2008-10-22T22:46:00.002+08:00

current mood: whatever *rolls eyes*
currently listening to: cute is what we aim for.

wow. today was okay lah. not that bad. gems was abit boring. hah. love relations. it was a bore. i cud actually fall asleep. and we have assignment! omg! i was like wtf. haha. people were nice. but its awkward since i dint come last week. but its fine. hahaha. no mats at least. then after that it was off to town.

town was okay. my workmates bullied me. disturbing me with this guy i like well. now not so much. cuz hes like very clingy. texting me every min, every hour. even when im in class he wants to text me. omg. haiz. hes cute and all but enuf is enuf uh. hes like over protective too. like everytime i have to go off somewhere he ask with who and what am i doing. i was like urgh. give me my space. ure not even my bf. haiz. it was all the idea of my fren who told him. my gawd. now im suffocating. this is why i dont want a bf. haiz. ahhh!! can i just like disappear for a while. and like dont text anyone. i dont think we are even compatible. i dunno ah. haiz.

i want a guy whos into the same things as me like music or movies. personalities like they dont text u so much that u feel like throwing away ur phone. like they will always say have fun with a smile even tho it hurts them to know they're not with u. like how they always hug u when they c u and hug u when they leave u. it means that they want u to be safe and wanted. and even if they are with their friends they always look for u and smile at u even just for one sec just to c if u wud smile back. like when they touch ur hand u just dont ever want to let go. like when they steal a kiss on ur cheek when ure not expecting it. like how u will sit at a park late at night with no one there but the two of u and u talk about silly things about urself and laugh. like how when u just have this moment where u stare at him and u get closer and closer like u just might kiss. or like how u spend time with ur group of frens and thinking that why cant it just be the two of u and when u tell him while walking home he says the same thing. its like a fairytale. i might not happen for me. well. half of it did but half of it im just still wishing for it. those are the things that makes me know if im in love with him or not. so safe to say. im not meeting any new guys at the given moment, which is now lah. hahaha.

i think that is all i have to say. btw. watch rock and rolla. its good. super2 awesome but its m18 lah. haha. so just to make sure. kiddies dont watch kay. hahahaha. not for the young nor for the faint hearted. oh did i mention there's a sex scene in it. i know the guys wud wanna watch it. guys love action movies. the shooting the killing the sex the foul language the music. everything was awesome. even songs i know is in the movie. "be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen" i forgot what song it is but i think its by the subway. maybe im wrong. anyone? haha a little help??

i bid u farewell. i even watched mamma mia dvd with my mummy just now when i got home. ahha. its so cute. i even sang with my mum like most of the songs. =) nights everyone =)

ahhh! mamma mia!

2008-10-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

current mood: exhausted =x
currently listening to: demi lovato=))

omg! omg! omg! its been so long since ive updates. i really2 apologise to everyone! omg. haha. ive been trying my best to remember to blog but ive been soooo busy with sch, fasting mth and hari raya. hahahaha omg!!!!! hahahaha. okay im soooo hyper today. hahahaha.

well im writing again thanks to my dear friend edwin. haha. hes been bugging me to write. haha. well not bugging but reminding. haha. =) and its like wow. sch this sem is so heartbreaking. very2 heartbreaking. monday start at 11 end at 4. tuesday start at 9 end at 6. wednesday is my fav i only have gems and its frm 1-3. its stupid love relations. i was sick last week so tmr will be my first lesson. hahaha. damn. hopefully there's hotties. =P thursday is a killer. 8-5. and there's 4 hours of Digital Video Productions and Applications(DVPA) omg. it sucks. but our teacher is fun hahaha. andrew is his name but the first lesson i fell asleep. hahaha. friday is the worst! even tho its 3 hrs. its issues and viewpoints. more about opinions on current affairs and modern history. hes super anal lah the teacher. my goodness. he mocks people and he comments ppl like its not hurtful. damn.

so far week one of sch was fun but a drag haha. gotten sick and fallen asleep in class. hahaha. but it was fun. hahaha. missed my classmates damn much. nth much happened so far in the time span that i dint write anything haha. well except hari raya and sch reopens. hahaha. then i went to eat ramen ten with sakinah last sunday. oishi desu ne~ haha. damn good sia the food. hahahaha. but we dont understand when they say welcome in jap. haha. like they rushing thru the word.

ystd was the cass talentime finals. haha. ones we expected to win did win for the duet but for the solo. it was horrendous. atikah dint win. janna dint win. only lam lam did. my gawd. its so unfair. haha. congrats to serene n mikh for getting first and jeannine and kavee for getting 2nd hahaha. u guys were awesome! and i was asked why i dint join. one i was lazy. two i dint want to get a minus one cuz it was leceh. three for the duet, my duet partner was stolen from me hahahahaha. nvm2. there's always nxt year and the year after nxt. hopefully i can make it. im not that good anyways. =)

okay im done for now. i'll blog again tmr. if i rmbr haha. if im not that busy. =) nights sweetdreams my readers.

pictures!

2008-09-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

meet and greet!

for the nike race run. not yet gotten the pics haha. so just chilax for it. =))

itai!

2008-09-07T01:05:00.002+08:00

current mood: hungry
currently listening to: jonas brothers =)

wah. its been so long since i've updated this thing hahaha. gomenasai. sorry people. for one its fasting mth so im like way lazy and way shagged everytime. two ive been stuffing my face everytime during break fast time. haha. three ive been watching jap dramas for dunno how long already hahaha.

ive went for the nike race run concert. it was awesome! boys like girls were amazing live! ahh! got good shots. i'll post the pics later haha. then i went for their meet and greet the next day. haha ahhh i got to take pic with martin! haha. awesome. and they signed my psp my album. i even got a gift for sakinah that day. so babe u'll get ur gift soon enuf. ahaha. just wait. =) i know u'll love it.

so. fasting mth has been a bore so far. haha. but i had loads of fun watching my dramas. haha but i've had fever. =( and sore throat. i sound so like a man. hahaha. but getting better. hopefully by nxt week so i can jam =)) hahaha

so just now was fun. went to watch jam aloud 2 semis at scape. it was okay uhs the bands. but it rained right after savingsomeone finished playing haha. wah eds mouth so masin. haha. meaning what he says will always come true. haha. well the bad stuff anyways. but well i got soaked. now im having a fever again. thx ah ed. =P after that go meet bay. even at wlds. i walking halfway at traffic light waiting for it to turn green its like wah heavily raining. damn. until after the traffic light then it stopped for some fucking reason. geez.

then chilling with bay under this block. then got this bunch of skater kids like was fr my num. okay i gave it to them being nice. but it was something stupid. haha. bay was like teasing me. cuz when i was walking to the bus stop, this kid keeps screaming at me to say bye n stuff. calls me an ass summore geez i was like dude if i dont wanna turn means i dun wanna turn hahaha. walau. creepy man. like dude if i tak layan just shut up ah. walau. fucking scary.

so now im just on my bed watching jap dramas. haha. gokusen is pretty funny. haha u guys shud watch. =) anyways. i got a new baju kurung today. my aunt bought it frm vietnam haha. its beautiful its has this translucent dark green material over this bright green silk. its my fave colour! its wonderful. must thank her one day haha.

so now im about to continue my dramas until morning! sayonara!

i will be your wings.

2008-08-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

I’ve got some story to tell you
I hope you don’t mind just stay awhile
It’s been too long since we had a chance
And everything seems to be alright

You look so worried and troubled
What’s on your mind please tell me so
We have all night to share your sorrow
I don’t wanna see you all alone

You will never understand what I went through
All the nights that I’ve been crying by myself
Now it seems that I have only one more chance
All I’ve got are these four words to you

Come back to me
Come back to me
And let me take you far away and set you free
Come back to me
Come back to me
Until my dying day I will be your wings

There’s so many things I want to show you
But I have to leave this all behind
Everything that we went through
Is just another memory on my mind

We’ll meet again someday
I really want to make it up to you
Too many things we share together
It would be a waste if we let it go.

You will never understand what I went through
All the nights that I’ve been crying by myself
Now it seems that I have only one more chance
All I’ve got are these four words to you

Come back to me
Come back to me
And let me take you far away and set you free
Come back to me
Come back to me
Until my dying day I will be your wings

Come back to me
Come back to me
And let me take you far away and set you free
Come back to me
Come back to me
Until my dying day I will be your wings

Come Back To Me - PeepShow

come back to me.

2008-08-30T00:51:00.007+08:00

current mood: tired
currently listening to: peepshow!

wow. its like been so long since ive posted. fr a week plus. haha. might have been busy with writing. haha i write songs but i stop halfway. haha. okay. lets start

monday 25th aug. went to go find jobs with sakinah. haha. it was fun experience. haha. met nice ppl along the way. ahax. then after that went home to slp haha. or just slack uh. none of the places we applied called. dumbfuck.

tues 26th aug. went to dmc chalet. haha. made friends with the seniors. haha. the funny thing was, there were drinks and a dance floor downstairs but most of them were upstairs playing ps2 and cards. thats why playstation is not a good thing to bring during chalets. it dies out the fun. hahaha. and when we were sleeping it was like me reynold kavee azahar fadzly. haha. 5 of us squeezed onto a bed made out of 2 single beds. haha. well. i almost fell of cuz of reynold but he ended talking to me frm 5 am onwards causing me not to slp fr the whole night. haha

weds 27th aug. reached home frm chalet about 1 plus. slept at 3. and woke up at 1130. haha. dint do much that night ah. just listened to music and just dozed off like after 2 hrs ahahaha.

thurs 28th aug. went out with eds. haha. went to watch movie at the cathay. haha clone wars. DO NOT WATCH!. its damn draggy fr an animation. haha. and the plot is so short that when it almost came to the exciting part the movie ended. haha. waste of moolah ppl! then we went to it fair(COMEX) haha at suntec. i saw azlan and his classmates and he was totally checking me out. creepy much haha. then saw the dmc seniors. haha. n saw my classmates too. hahaha damns. then went to esp. tot just wanna chill but then heard soundcheck and watched peepshow do soundcheck. then i went to eat with zaki frm peepshow haha. note: he's hot. =) and hes got a voice that just melts u. then went home met bay at wlds. chilled. haha then went home. sleep. haha

fri 29th aug which is today. went to meet sakinah. haha. passed her my adidas bag. shes got drama camp. damn! hahaha. then went to starbucks with her. greentea frappe! haha. then went banquet eat dinner. haha. then i went to baybeats and she went home. i reached esp at 6. then met up with peepshow. haha then when they went for meet and greet i sat there like stupid and played bleach on my psp. then saw ashida n ashik. omg they getting married lah. haha. nxt year sept. haha. congrats to both of them omg. then i saw wirda n faizal. haha i hugged wirda like super long time nvr c her. cuz i dint c her fr a week plus or 2 weeks. hahaha. damn. then watched leeson. peepshow's set was awesome new songs were great! haqha. i loved all of them cant wait fr them to record them ahh. *melts* tho i stupidly lost the vids i took. but still there were awesome pics. hahaha. hyeah! here are the pics!

zaki and the scarf on the mic stand. haha.

mik showing off haha.

sk haha face blur2.

zaki. full of emotions.
not the whole band. missing yuk and edmund. n okay maybe sk's head.

wow hotstuff edmund. haha. he came in wifebeater plus suspenders. haha.

peepshow's new bassist. fadil. quite hot "he's single" quoted frm zaki. haha

my fav pic. haha. its wow.

me and zaki! haha. awws.

i think thats it for my post today. lazy lah! haha damns.gd nights ppl. will try to update often. but no promises! hahaha

awesomeness.

2008-08-21T23:35:00.002+08:00

current mood: happy!
currently listening to: jonas brothers. =)

random!

today was awesome! haha icp was managable. i noe i can score uh. hopefully. hahaha. then today was the first time i heard hanfei speak chinese. haha. i was laughing2 and he ask me to shut up in chinese. haha so i replied in chinese aso. haha. damn funny. cuz we left early b4 the paper ended. aha. so now im like jumping for joy already. haha. ate my mum cookies just now. they liked it. even sharizan say can bake hari raya cookies. haha.

my ankles better now haha. can walk properly but still abit pain ah. haha. and ive heard of more drama now. haha. but nah im still chill. haha dun like to create drama or be in it.hahaha. tmr going to apply fr a job at f1. hopefully still have ah. haha. like paisey ah. eds gonna accompany me. haha n we can go to starbucks! yay finally. sorry eds fr not going just now. haha. now im all better n we can enjoy! haha

n yeah i might b getting my topman jacket tmr too! finally hahaha. damn! and i wanna get my twilight series. haha 4 books. twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn. haha. sakinah bring the book tmr!! hahaha. damn. gonna have dinner with my class at 6 at cityhall. then after go watch fireworks festival haha. awesome!

okay now imma rest and eat my mums cookies till they finish! hee imma cookie monster. cant wait for popcorn player this sat also. hee. =) nights everyone!

gossip girl.

2008-08-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

current mood: sucky =|
currently listening to: metro station =)

stupid short post.

sorry for not blogging fr like a week straight. hah. one im lazy and two i was mugging fr my end sem papers. damn. effing marketing is sooooo stressful! i felt like dying! haha. it was okay. can do but i just crapped my way thru it. and tmr is icp! another one to crap thru ahahahha. =) hee so now im taking a break frm mugging cuz i fell! otw home hah. just put down the phone then i tripped over the curb. haha. damn. now my ankle's busted and its bandage. mum puts loads of effort massaging it. haha. hurts. haha. damn man. then just now mike n jai was plaing guitar n singing awesomeness! haha. now i can just sit ard do nth but read icp.

well. this past week has been funny and sucky and full of drama(i think) haha. funny cuz. been chilling with an mike n jai all. jokes recordings. haha. jokes were damn funny. sometimes an makes jokes and i disturb him and like he pinches me n stuff haha. pain but funny. or vice versa. if i pinch him his expressions are soooo funny! hahaha. puppy dog face lah. wanna cry face lah. hahahaha. n we recorded exclusive me mike n jai. haha. damn. nice yar but sucky abit haha

sucky cuz of the mugging. last min yeah but chiong ah! haha. managed to study but cudnt rmbr the terms man. so it was all bullcrap. hee. so yeah. most of my classmates aso like dat. hahaha. tmr shud be fine. i know i failed the written test by like 2 3 marks. but yeah. haha. imma chiong icp! kampate! haha. damn. drama is funny. haha. but i cant really put down cuz it might damage friendships and also create enemies. im the kind of person who's chill and cool. collected. haha. cuz dun like making enemies. wah i remember sec sch. a group of gals hate me fr no effing reason! haha. damn. maybe they're jealous im one of the guys last time. haha. n hot guys i might add. they're my bros! haha elder bros n younger ones too. haha. what do u expect frm a tomboy.

dont really be fooled by my looks. i might look like i have loads of girlfriends but no. haha. most of my frens are guys. i have specially close gfs yeah. i love them to death. ive know sakinah since p3! haha. ive known hannah fr a year almost 2. haha. i love them so much. also rusydia and aisyah! love them. haha. i have loads of guy bestfriends. khai. hes like my older bro or maybe younger cuz he acts younger then me. hah. ive known him for almost a solid 2 yrs. ahaha. damn awesome. khairul. hes my ex turned bestfriend. i still love him loads even tho we dun really meet much haha. and there's this guy. cant really mention his name cuz its not needed to b known. ive known him since sec 2. we did have something goin on just early this year but yeah. hes like my pillar of strength. i tell him everything. hes like a secret bestfriend cuz his bestfriend cant know that. hah. an and fad. the two bros whom ive known since pri sch. urgh they are just like family. i c them i hug them. they bully me like a lil sis they nvr had. haha. mike. known him since sec 2. hah. hes my lil bro. haha. love him too.

im kinda random when i post blogs. haha. i just say whats on my mind. tmr i wanna go out but my ankle's busted. haha. i'll c how. imma study with sakinah at civic. aha. hopefully can one. hhaha. so imma say good nights and sweet dreams.

run baby run =)

2008-08-14T23:36:00.001+08:00

Check yes Juliet, are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won’t go until you come outside
Check yes Juliet, kill the limbo
I’ll keep tossing rocks at your window
There’s no turning back for us tonight

Lace up your shoes (ay oh, ay oh)
Here’s how we do
Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance (give them the chance)
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

Check yes Juliet, I’ll be waiting
Wishing, wanting, yours for the taking
Just sneak out and don’t tell a soul goodbye
Check yes Juliet, here’s the countdown
3-2-1, now fall in my arms now
They can change the locks, don’t let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes (ay oh, ay oh)
Here’s how we do
Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance (give them the chance)
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

We’re flying through the night
We’re flying through the night
Way up high
The view from here is getting better with you by my side

Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be

Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance (give them the chance)
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

You and me
You and me


check yes juliet by we the kings

wow. i want Donnie Klang!

2008-08-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

current mood:tired
currently listening to: day 26 =)))

WARNING!:very short and stupid =)

okay. so this week has been okay so far. haha. projects done. just left with mugging. haha thats the sucky part man. haha damn. nxt week exams! damn. im so scared. if i fail fom again im doomed. kicked out of sch. shit! haha. i think ah. but i know i can do good this time. payed attention fr lectures. did most of the tutorials. presentations were awesome haha. all i need is a pass fr the test and im good to go. then there;s icp. hah. shit. icp is like irrelevent yet relevent. haha. i dunno. its a fun topic but the terms and definitions are *ahhh!* hahahaha. damn. dunno if i can rmbr. ive gt 3 days to study fr fom. haha it shud b enuf. and ive got a 4 or 5 days fr icp. hah. then after icp gonna go watch fireworks. haha! woohoo!! hahahaha. damn. cant wait fr exams. i just need to mug mug mug.

so this weekend's gonna b a blast! haha. sat wud b mugging and more mugging. sun wud b shopping, gig-ing then mugging. haha. damn. this weekend is tapestry. haha. its gona b awesome man. arrowhead performing this sat. saving someone this sun. haha. its gonna b fun. this sun most prob me tams and maybe a few others forced by tams going. haha. okay not forced persuaded. haha. damn. i cant wait man.

this few days have been hanging out with mike zam hidir. haha. they are fun bunch. zam ive known him since pri sch so hes like my bro n yeah i did have a crush on him in sec 1 but its all over. haha. hes my bro and i love him like family. haha. he likes to encourage me to sing. haha. cuz he sings and raps. dude got mad skills. aha just now at mikes place me zam hidir and mike were like having fun watching jabbawockeez, day 26, donnie klang, and other artists. hiphop of course cuz ma bros are hiphop-ers ahaha. im stuck being a rock chick but i do love it. i feel like doing covers of hiphop songs haha. esp exclusive by day 26. that song is like wow. its so meaningful and u shud hear them sing is slow and with the piano. haha. and ive been searching fr donnie's album since ever. hahaha.

we made balloons too at mikes place. ate ferrero rocher. =) played gta. actually hidir was there first playing gta and when i reached he was like screaming at the tv. haha almost ah. haha. just bought my contacts. haha. but my freaking pimples are killing me. i wanna know how to remover these stupid blemishes and i want my old smooth skin back.! haha. any reccommendations people?? haha. and finally im gonna get my jansport backpack this sun. haha. daddy's buying! hahaha. its a black with a hawk design on the small pocket infront. its really cool. my bro wud wanna use it but in ur dreams loser! haha. uve got ur own so use urs. haha. mine is cuz u took all my backpacks and either ruined them or nvr returned them. hah. asswipe =) mind my language. to my bro i must be rough haha. he wont b reading this anyways. hahaha.

okay now. my eyes are heavy but i cant sleep. but i'll try anyways. =)) nights sweetdreams everyone!

have you been bitten?

2008-08-10T01:13:00.001+08:00




Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again

I can’t get your smile out of my mind
(I can’t get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
You’re beautiful but you don’t even try
(You don’t even, don’t even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby, can't you see

Now I’m…
Yeah!

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Now I'm hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again
Ohh... lovebug again







Lovebug by Jonas Brothers

beautiful flowers of fire.

2008-08-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

current mood: shagged
currently listening to: the sound the fan makes. =)

hey peeps. im sooooo shagged right now. haha just got home frm watching the fireworks. wow. the fireworks were sooo beautiful. omg. if only i had somebody to watch it with. as in somebody special. it was so romantic. i was like watching the fireworks and i was like thinking2 of that special guy that i will nvr get. haiz. well what to do. i have such bad luck with guys anyways. =\ anyways. i watched the fireworks with amanda bay, her sis n her sis' bf. haha. so beng sia.! omg! haha. urgh i hate bengs and lians and mats and minahs! haha. they are so overated. haha. geez. wear freaking shoes fr goodness sake. haha. i think they are meant to wear slippers so when its like packed their feet will get smashed and stepped on and they cud nvr walk agn. i think that wud b like a very very good thing haha. no more of their kind! hahahaha

then after, i chilled with fad an and the rest of the ndp motivators. haha. cool!! omg i missed an n fad super duper much. n yeah hannah also! haha. they are like my family outside my family haha. i love them so much. we chilled at marina square fr a bit after a small bite then we ventured on to esplanade. haha(wah like writing adventure story) haha. went right infront of harry's and like let go of ballons. it was awesome man. haha. then there was this dude who kept taking pics with the dslr. i was so jealous. haha. omg!! haha. but it was an awesome day lah. after that we went to the basement 2 of esp and chilled there. some of the boys were like break dancing. haha. it was funny. then me fad an n mike were lying down on the lift floor taking pics haha. funny! haha. shall post the pics soon haha.

then went home.(so boring) haha. went to the train station n i saw my ex! omg! he looked so diff. he looked handsome and quite changed frm the last time i saw him which was like 3 yrs ago. hah. omg. i dint know why i like let him go also. he was still the guy i fell for 3 yrs ago. hah. okay. n the freaking train ride was so like awkward cuz we dint even talk to each other man. haha. i was standing at the glass panel and was like falling asleep and he was at the pole facing the door. i was behind him of course. i knew that he wanted to talk to me cuz he kept looking behind. haha. i was too shy i guess. hah. or scared. hah. well. during that train ride. i was like trying to hold my laugh in. cuz, i saw this chinese dude fall asleep right after he came into the train at yishun haha. the top of his head was on the glass panel. then his body was like slanted haha. then he was wearing a singlet top. i cud c his nipple(not for underaged) haha. it was funny cuz the aunty nxt to him keep wanting to move to her left more but it was the 2 seater. haha. his body was falling2 to the side n he dint even budge to adjust himself. then nxt to me was this chinese lady. her head keep falling2 and was like bopping forward and backward haha. then when she woke up she did this like breathing exercise i was like "woah wth is she doing man" then she was like trying to stretch her back haha. she dropped of at admiralty with me also. haha. damn funny train ride. i cudnt even slp haha.

after everything today. im finally going off to bed. cuz ive gt a wedding to attend to tmr haha. damn! nights ppl! i'll dream of good things.!

love.

2008-08-06T20:35:00.005+08:00

current mood: sleepy and headachey.
currently listening to: there for tomorrow(good band yo) =)

this is going to be one of the longest post ive written haha. surprise2.

wow. ystd was a blast! haha. i had so much fun. cam whoring and eating food. haha. loved the food. ystd was like such a wonderful day that im gonna miss my uncle's family when the go back to aussie. haha. but now my english sounds like aussie english. dammit haha. just abit tho. so its cool. haha. loads of pics were taken. and yeah after like ard 1 my parents went home. my other uncles went home and my aunts also. it was only me uncle kamal, uncle zahari, uncle zul, mal and her bro. so its was fun drinking at the wee hrs of the morning even tho got this damn irritating indian fuckers who were blasting hiphop songs. no offence ah but its kinda annoying in the wee hrs and i dun really listen to them. grr. got home this morning at ard 6 haha then i was knocked out damn bad. haha. once i layed my head on my pillow i was gone. aha. woke up at 3. played ps2 when my parents got back. haha. yeah they are gamers too haha. funky parents i know. haha. then like i was thinking2 and i was totally spacing out man. damn.

i was thinking of loads of things. haha. sch boys and my family. family cuz im gonna miss my uncle. havent seen him or his family fr soooo long. hopefully dad lets me go to aussie nxt year haha. fingers crossed!! haha. sch cuz ive got loads of projects and the are killing me man! argh! i just cant think straight. i havent even started on my oc presentation fr this fri. damn im so screwed. haha. music. what can i write thats persuasive fr music. damn. haha. and its like fr underground artists. haha. i dunno ah. just impromtu. haha. boys. wow. boys is a broad subject fr me. haha. im bad at relationships is one thing. bad luck with boys is another. maybe i shud just frgt abt having a guy and just be single and free. cuz its hard fr guys to get my attention cuz i like have loads of guy frens. haha. its true. im a tomboy but still a girl at heart. haha

guys wud have to do loads of stuff to grab my attention man. im like grr. haha. guys have to sensitive but yet manly so they dont look gay. haha. and also being a musician is a bonus but i dun care what u do as long as u have a great personality im cool. but u got to have great taste in music esp. good music means good mood haha. and i love going to local gigs to support the local bands. i love to belt out local songs like lie you a fairytale or now we will or dkny with my frens. i just love a guy who can like make me laugh all the time. whom i can talk about anything and everything under the big blue sky. he has to be able to accompany me shopping. haha. and someone who i can be my bestfriend and my boyfriend at the same time. i just love someone who can just cheer me up when im down and get along well with my frens esp. if u dun like my frens then say bye bye to ur chances with me. choosy yes but it is what makes me happy. everyone wants to be happy. im not that type who like sticks to my bf every single min. i hate that. i hate guys who do that also. and i dun care who u go out with a guy or girl cuz i dun like being that sort thats over protective. and i had an over protective bf once i was so pissed off that i just dumped him after a mth. it sucks yeah but i dun like to be in a cage. i like to be able to do what i want and when i want. and of course i love a guy who surprises me once in a while even tho we dont go out tgtr much. haha. if u think im too demanding then whatever. haha. its just me. im sure some girls agree to my choice of guys and characteristics of them. so just stfu! hah.

whatever it is i need to slp. i wanna wake up early to do my oc tmr b4 class. haha. and after class im gonna sit infront of my laptop in sch to finish up my oc so i can think of what to say on fri. haha. cheerios and may god b with u. sleep tight everyone! enjot the photos below b4 u go. my head hurts frm thinking too much hah.

thats my mum =|

shahrul steph and farid.

me fifi aunt gillian and hikmah

hikmah josh me fifi

kissy farah

ladies.

pearly whites.

we love to chill. me n my uncles.

look at that wonderful face.

me n nick.

me and steph. aint she pretty.

josh is only 17!

family portrait! wow my face.

love that face i made. haha

that's my granny in the middle.

the grand kids plus mak su and cik zainal hah.

haha jump! but i wasnt jumping.

new things. hah.

2008-08-03T00:07:00.005+08:00

current mood: tired + happy
curently listening to: fightstar!

deafening silence.

that's cassie. their vocalist.

ivory

picture perfect.

thats jialin of saving someone.

saving someone's NEW drummer.

i love his hair!

saving someone.

mr roboto. haha.

cool huh.

well. today was a great day. haha. my family had a kenduri just now. with both my dad n mums side. its a prayer session for the passed on. its for my late grandpa. he passed on 100 days ago. its sad yeah im still reminicsing abt it. damn. but it was fun. families coming tgtr. my uncle is at home haha. with my family now. but tmr hes going off to aloha chalet. haha. tues wud be bbq night fr my dads side. haha. its gonna b fun cuz im not goin sch on weds! haha. maybe i drop by to have vocal sessions with tammy. haha. she wants to.

today was great cuz me tams and yanhan went to home club for touchdown. haha. great bands played. even edwin's band saving someone played. i took their pics fr db. haha. i was lost fr ideas but then i thought of local bands that are easy to reach haha. so yeah. haha. its gonna b a fun process. took loads of pics like u saw above. then me tams n yanhan had a great time even though yanhan had to leave early and cudnt watch saving someone.

deafening silence was great. haha. cassie is an awesome singer and im not =( boo hoo. haha. ivory was awesome too. cuz they cover its dangerous walking out your front door by underoath. one of my fav songs. haha. i was like so stoked just now and i was singing along. me and tams stayed on and stuff. took pics. randomly singing. haha. the singing part was fun haha.

tmr's gonna be a bright new day. if only i can sleep haha. im still abit pissed cuz my hair keeps falling. and maybe one day i might just be bald. damn. haha. im gonna go off now. need to upload my photos. haha. n yeah btw i got a new mint green psp slim. be jealous! hahahhahahha. nights ppl!!

heys.

2008-07-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

current mood: tired =(
currently listening to: west grand boulevard =)

heys ppls!! i know its been a while but yeah. haha. been real busy with sch work and projects and stuff. haha. today was a tiring day n stuff and it has been a hectic few weeks. well projects aside and its time for semestral exams.

past few weeks we had presentations fr OC and FOM. OC presentation was sucky. haha. damn funny lah. ystd we looked at our mistakes during presentation and it was so funny. haha. FOM. FOM presentation ROCKED! ahaha. it was fun doing it this time round and it was like i nvr even wrote down notes fr the presentation lah. haha. it was all on me. haha.

then came to IMW test just now. it was freaky but i cud do it. and i know i wud pass haha. it was somehow easy this time haha. schs almost over and come on 6 wks vacation! haha. and at least we get to celebrate hari raya. haha. yeah! then cant wait fr nxt sem. its gonna b so much fun! haha. frens frm diff classes haha. and diff schs. haha. gems! i love gems. haha.

so ystd was chatting with edwin online and it was like funny lah. haha. he showed me myspaces of bands then he says only dld a few songs cuz hes gonna get the new albums haha. im still looking fr punk goes crunk album if anyone has it just holla! haha.

my uncle is already settled at aranda country club chalet. i cant wait fr his family to move in here fr a week or so haha. its gonna b so much fun! wee. ahha. and im gonna get my psp! haha. psp slim. mint green. ahh!!! cant wait!!! haha. n when i got home just now, abah bought me 2 bodyshop perfumes. haha. so sweet of him. but he bought rougeberry! my fav sia haha.

okay nows. im gonna work on my assignments. DB, IMW and OC. indiv and group projects. damn! ttyl people! peace out.

hey sexy ppl.

2008-07-14T23:47:00.004+08:00

currently listening to: PARAMORE! current mood: bored.

hey guys. haha. sat was a fun day at hook'd haha. watched beach soccer, deputy siren, west grand. haha. was sunburned in the process of waiting to perform. haha. dint win though but it was a great performance! crowd was great. sang along to face down too. =)) here are some pics.

hook'd

its us the square party!

chiling.

west grand vocalist! BRYAN!

SCANDAL!

properties of the performers.

me and tams. SP TAMMY!

tammy is stalking tihs guy!

well. had a great time at sentosa. loads of my frens were congratulating me on my performance n stuff. haha. even got disturbed sia. haha by the organizer. dragged me all the way to meet the deputy siren's drummer. haha.

im going to bed now. tmr sch! nights!!!

hey!

2008-07-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

current mood: ecstatic
currently listening to: paramore

omg guys. its been super duper long since ive posted!!!

anyways. me and tammy are gonna perform tmr at cafe del mar! hee. we got thru the auditions for hook'd at cafe del mar. we were like so excited! haha. and its like we're the one doing an acoustic set while the rest is all out bands. this is like going to be the best day. cuz our lovelies are gonna be there like helping out fr the event man! haha. even my fren who is not frm sp is coming. he can sneak in sia. hook'd is exclusive only fr sp students. haha damn boy! can c all the hotties! ahh! cant wait. hee.

this is the set list fr tmr. =) btw we are called the square party.!

My Hero
Face Down

ahh now i gotta go slp if not im gonna get killed tmr. hee. i'll write more tmr. pics n vids wud b up soon!! ahax. tc!

wow what a week!

2008-05-24T23:17:00.003+08:00

current mood: happy.
currently listening to: david cook!

okay first off. sorry for not updating for a while now. its like ive got so many freaking projects lor. urgh. im finally done and im left with 2 group projects. haha. fom and icp. damn. it was a week of drama and a week of fun. haha.

drama. because of khai and jannah. i was like freaking mad lah. i wanted to do my db project on weds then its like i was already stressed then i wanted to go fr a smoke. met khai and man at the taxi stand as usual at 12. but the prob is jannah was there. i was like wtf! i already not good mood and i have to c her black face. and she did act as if she was happy to c me but then after that she showed me her black face over again. i was like wtf! then after school. i met up with him to smoke agn n went to union to chill n do my project. then its like we have to get out cuz they had meeting. then we went to fc5. i already set up my laptop then they want to move to t16. i was like okay uh. then khai was like asking whether i was okay or not. i wasnt in the mod so i raised my voice. he shudve known better. then he gave me attitude. when i asked him where the rest were i gave up and i went to t15. after halfway done with my project he came over and talked to me. tried to soften me and apologized and asked me to join him n her. being a good fren to my bestfriend i went. but he was flirting with her the whole time i was there. he dint even talk to me. so i switched off my laptop and went out to smoke. then that bugger dint even bother to come lok for me n he just went home. and the best part is he accompanied her to woodlands. i saw him but he was too scared to call me. i never brought up anything. and i still talk to him now but he doesnt have a clue that i know.

okay. gss ppl. haha. ystd went to vivo with jit denzel tammy leeyan yanhan n fiona. haha. photos were taken.topshop and topman was my fav stop. haha. tops from both sides were awesome. cuz i cud fit both. hahaha. these were the ones i tried.

this was my fave!! topshop. the only size 6 man. 73 bucks! wanted to buy. denzel chose it. hahaha
this was topman. it was nice. damn i cud fit xs sia.

this is topman also. haha. xs. JOKER!!!
this one is my fave too. haha blue stripes on white shirt. xs man. denzel keep asking me to buy it.

another of my fave. haha. i like the purple and graphics. xs!!

just now went to nlb do icp! ahaha. i was like half sleeping lah after i was done with my part of the project. hahaha. then we went shopping! wanted to get the wayfarers at cotton on aso it was like no black. i was ahh!! heart pain!!! hahaha. went makan after dat then went home. hahaha. then when i was walking towards my block there. the zebra crossing near 605 there was this bunch of hot skaters. haha. then the guy at the back was like " hey rockstar" i was smiling and smiling. then when i crossed he called "rockstar" and waved. haha. so cute. i smiled then just walked. i was smiling and singing all the way seh. haha. he was so cute. haha. awww. hee. then went home abah ordered mac. i was already full so i just ate abit. aha then now im here. hahahaha great week also uh. haha maybe tmr getting my dunks. hahaha.

now i wanna go to bed. cuz im sleepy. i'll write soon kays. tc guys. nights!

hey guys.

2008-05-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

currently listening to : fireflight(awesome band)
currently feeling: stoked and tired and hating tmr(sch time).

okay i havent been posting fr like 3 days i think its cuz ive been either busy or sad or just lazy. haha. well i was damn sad on friday. cuz i gadoh with my bestfriend khai bcuz of this girl. haiz. cuz she was like looking at me with that black face everytime i try to talk to khai or just walk nxt to him while he talks to me. its like freaking annoying. how wud u like it if u had a girl doing that while u were talking to ur best guy friend. my god. u shudve seen her face man. haiz. dammit. shes really acting like a kid u know. everytime she sees me she gives me that attitude. even when i dint wanna wait fr him dat day she like keep saying that hes done n stuff. i told her. he lived in bedok we lived in woodlands. in my heart i was like bloody muthafucker u like him just admit it larh. my god i was already furious dat day. i was freaking giving my friends attitude bcuz of her. argh!!! when i came down to vivo on friday i just sast down with them n she wanted to go home. how fucking rude is that. urgh! so freaking pissed man. me n khai made up though but i dun think it wud the last time. cuz everytime i try to talk to him its like jannah this jannah that. n his batt is always dead ever since he keep msging her. my god its even diff fr me to contact him lah to meet up. i had to call his classmate. urgh! my goodness. we'll c when sch opens tmr or when we play soccer on weds what happens. most prob i wud be like ramming the ball against the wall rather than playing. urgh. now i feel effing worse cuz i had to spill it all over agn. okay im done abt that girl.

now about saturday. i was freaking pissed the day before so i got my fav book and went to one fullerton. starbucks was needed after a day of drama. urgh. i sat there fr like 2 hrs or maybe more reading like 3 or 4 chapters of twilight. i actually saw him. haha. hes was so cute. he was with his friends but when they just sat down in their seats they were like staring at what i was doing. haha. i was like turning red man. so embarrassing. but it was okay. that day i really like relaxed myself cuz i was reading which was good. and my greentea frappucino was awesome. it really like melted all my problems away. i was glad i went out that day. got to take pics of the skyline there. it was beautiful. haha. damn awesome lahs.

okay ystd sucked. wanted to go to my mum's aunt's place fr a family gathering but. i was forced to go to a wedding with my dad. i nvr wore my baju kurong but had to wear long sleeve but it was freaking hot! but at least i looked hot too! haha. i hated to wear those baju kurongs or kebaye. it just made me feel so girly. haha. but then after that went to cash converter at adm. nth much uh there. boring. then went to giant. daddy bought 2 tvs. 26" and 29" just to watch soccer. the bigger one wud b in the living room. the smaller one in his room. damn. mummy got angry just now. hahahaha. funny sia see her reaction. haha. cuz my dad was comparing tv agn. so i told him he already gotten 2 tvs not enuf meh. haha then he gave me the 'u know ur mum's gonna freak' look. haha. i dint care. i just laughed my ass off watching her nail him. hahaha. he sed im gonna get a new bed so i picked a new one. haha. at least when i got that im gonna be able to see my floor again. hahaha.

and today. went to one fullerton. did my db project. well actually just abit uh. cuz i cudnt switch on my lappy. no batt. frgt to charge it. damn. then i was sitting there fr like 4 hrs. haha. arif was working so i gt discount on my green tea frap. his gf was there. im not really fond of her cuz i dunno her that much. but hearing her talk to her fren she seems like a person that i can talk to uh. she seemed nice. then went to esplanade rooftop to meet hannah fad an mike khidir and their friends whom i just met just now. hahaha. they were actually cool. very nice outgoing ppl. haha. i sang shadow by demi lovato fr hannah n she sed that i shud do it fr any sch singing comp audition. haha. i was damn stoked. haha. then she went home early so i went to chill with an n fad. haha they were funny as ever. n i missed fad super2 much. he actualy wore the bday gift i gave him. a belt with a superman buckle. haha. whole day was super fun except fr the 4 hr wait. haha. n yeah. that bugger i call my lil cuz went to slp when he was supposed to be meeting us at 6. damn man that kid. haha. he was also screamed at by his mum. aha. thx cik ya. hahaha. then it was my turn to scream at him when he called. hahaha.

okay ppl. i wanna go to slp nows. haha nights and sweetdreams.

what a day.

2008-05-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

omg i saw him again today. and he was wearing my favourite colour. green! haha. and he kept looking at me again. i know i shudnt like say much but its like omg. haha. hes super sweet and hes single! omg! haha. i can get my flirt on ppl! hes nice. he got the same instinct. i wanted to wear green today. haha. luckily i dint. haha. just hope i get to know him like better. cuz right now. im crushing hard. =)

okay sch was a bummer. boring! haha. had itb lesson. which i was slacking again. and after dat was icp. haha. icp was fun. trudy's lesson always fun. =) haha shes my fav. haha. tmr gt presentation. damn dat fom. if not i exempted. if i dint fail! damn. but its cool my group mates are cool. now its like urgh. missing my sec sch friends whom i hang out with usualy every day. now i only c them like once or twice a week. haiz.

for now. im crushing and just hoping. hah. cuz this guy is very loyal and committed. only had 2 relationships and both long term. damn. its so hard to get a guy like him. haiz. just hope he likes me like i like him. nights ppl!

im bored.

2008-05-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

well guys. now its like 1040-ish. and im like alone at home. really gt nth to do sia. damn! im like pissed at azlan and fauzan fr ditching me and rusy fr dinner. my god its like i ask them out to celebrate my bday n this is how they treat me. i really have to say that one is an ass the other is the follower. urgh!

first azlan says he cant make it cuz he gt tennis trials. but. he skipped that tennis and went to marina! argh! he dint even tell me he skiped. my god! that bugger is going to get it frm me. at least fauzan understandable uh. we dint have each other's new num.

well now im talking this hot guy ive been crushing since last year! omg. hes like uber hot. *drools* and he lives in smbwg! haha. but hes got a girl. well thats what my fren says uh. but hopefully its not true. haha. n hes good in soccer too. just now saw him play soccer. and my god his body. i can like just hug it and never let go. hes got abs ppl!! ahh!! haha.

now i need to get my db book before the doris nga marah me tmr. haha. during break. i have itb which i always slack in. then i have icp which we are goin to discuss our project. then we have break fr an hr and we have db. design basics. my fav module! hahaha. photoshop. i love to photoshop. n my dad's like planning to get a camera. a digicam!! hahaha. cant wait fr that.

okay i gtg ppl. update tmr! nights peace out!

testing!

2008-05-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. im just testing things out!